i hate how people are forced into… strategizing all their actions and *managing* other people and trying to function without being fully open or honest. having to play a horrible fucking game just to get by.
i'm so incredibly lucky to have a boyfriend who's as borderline, affectionate, empathetic, and committed to me as i am to him, someone to weather the storm together with. it takes so much pain and uncertainty and stress out of life. it breaks my fucking heart how many people don't have that. the fragile, friction-filled relationships most people have to put up with if they don't want to be completely alone. this culture that discourages commitment and honesty and interdependence in favor of small-minded, short-sighted selfishness.
i feel so, so bad for all the women who are trying to navigate these treacherous waters while their sense of self is being assaulted corrupted by the media and academia, being denied their place in the world and forced into roles they're completely unsuited to and lied to about absolutely everything, sabotaged in every way right out of the cradle. for all the men who are being demonized and devalued and dehumanized by our entire culture, held to impossible standards and treated as objects, toys to break and throw away by women who've had their psyches fried by progressive brainwashing to the point of near-psychosis. everyone being deprived of friendship and companionship and connection, of meaning and purpose.
i'm not as good at turning off my empathy for others as i used to be, which is really bad news when survival and happiness basically depends on being able to ignore the storm of suffering all around and fixate on your own cozy bubble of comfort and peace. it fucking hurts.